
Chad and Renee in Palmer Park
This weekend I went to visit an old college friend in Colorado Springs. There’s something about seeing someone who knew you before you were completely grown up. They know the part of you that is truly you, the core of your adult self. Somewhere along the way we often lose that person that still has a little bit of a child in them. It gets lost under the seats with the empty Coke bottles, chip bags, and crumpled up old dried fries from McDonald’s. I think when we are are right out of high school that person is at the verge of a percipice and is ready to jump into life, almost like a swimming pool. There is so much excitement and sometimes a little fear.
Some are more afraid than others. Chad never had any fear. He was confident, and if there was fear, he pushed it aside. But he wasn’t reckless, he calculated things and was smart. I was worried. I always worried, and I still do. But now I’m more prepared about things, so I don’t have so much to worry about. In fact, I worried so much back then that when Chad took my wisdom teeth out, the doctor he was working with said this, “Let’s give you a little something to relax.” She knocked me completely out. There was no relaxing. It was straight to twilight sleep. It was probably for the best. I guess I continued to talk the entire procedure anyway. She had to tell me to be quiet several times.
So, when I heard Chad say, “Come on, Kristen.” It took me back to being twenty-one again. It was like being in some crazy dream world where time had stopped and I was back to that person who was the very essence of Kristen Rae Palser, no addidtive or preservatives, straight and pure from concentrate.
Chad, and his wife Renee, and I drove up to Palmer Park in Colorado Springs at 10 P.M. and looked across the city. It was beautiful. I even stood on the ledge. That is dangerous territory for me. Then he said, “I want to take you guys somewhere else.” We drove around and while still on the mountain into this back road. I couldn’t believe he took his Volvo with his leather seats and tinted windows onto these rough outback roads. Renee doesn’t drive the Volvo because the windows are “borderline illegal, ” she says. I love Renee.
We all got out of the car like proper adults. Then Chad started climbing the rocks. No flashlights, no lights were anywhere near us. Just the moon and the stars were there to guide us. I told Chad I couldn’t see and that I just had flip flops on. “Come on, Kristen.” Somehow that one phrase that I had heard so many years ago seemed to reassure me. It’s not that I didn’t think it was a little crazy. I’ve got your crazy. But my measuring stick for crazy is possibly broken.
I went forward, but with my hands out in front of me as if it would keep me from falling forward when really I should’ve been worried about falling backwards. Renee followed me telling Chad she had on heels. Up we went, climbing over the rocks, around the trees. There wasn’t a path. It was upward bound all the way. I felt like a blind goat. Renee and I were a little out of breath at the top, but it was fantastic. We stood there for quite some time on a flat piece of rock. They pointed to the outline of Pike’s Peak and the college football stadium. I didn’t even think about going back down. But then it was upon us.
Chad told us to “step before we stepped.” He asked if we knew what he meant. We did. Renee had to take her shoes off for part of the way. I had a much easier time getting down, even though we went a totally different way, not that I would’ve been able to tell the difference. I still couldn’t see. Chad took both of our hands on the last two steps, in a gallant gesture that was totally unecessary but greatly appreciated. Now that we didn’t need help, there was the hand. It was a learning lesson for me, the climbing. It’s kind of like God. Going along with us, leading us, not doing all the work for us, and then taking us by the hand in the end.
At the very bottom and when we were getting in the car, I felt a little exhilerated. I had stepped out of my comfort zone. Who goes hiking in the dark? I didn’t really ever do that when I was 21, let alone now that I am 38. When we drove out on the rugged road, we passed some young people in their sports cars passing around bottles. That’s what I would’ve been doing out in the country years ago. This was so much more fun. I want to do it again, in tennis shoes.
There are so many lessons to be learned from that 45 minutes I spent with Chad and Renee in Palmer Park. It’s worth more than I can say. But I think about that sentence, “step before you step.” Sometimes we can’t always see where we are going in life. God doesn’t always shine a huge flashlight and say, “Thus goeth you in thiseth wayeth.” We just know to climb to the top. But we are still going to go. We are never alone. It’s not a solo journey. We do it together. Christianity is a team sport. Those are His promises to us. But it’s wise to step before we step. Don’t step on the sand or the loose rocks. Make sure you are on solid ground, and then it will be a little exhilerating. Christianity was never meant to be boring. This is life abundantly and He wants that part of you that is pure and from concentrate. That pure essence of you, He loves that part. Can I get a witness?
Even if you don’t believe in God, this is wise advice. Be sure of your steps and don’t go alone.


She made ten calls to 911 and they still did not come to the apartment to help the man. He died. It is hard to imagine that such a thing would happen today. On February 6th in Pittsburgh, that very thing happened. It was the middle of a snow storm, and a man was having terrible stomach pain. His fiancé continued to call, and the ambulances got as close as 400 meters twice. They told the man to get out and walk in the snow to the ambulance. The paramedics did not offer to walk and get him. The last call she made, she said she thought he was dead.